the morning after
relaxed
i only work in toothpaste
two pence piece
it's snowing
night night
the strangler
it's art
what
yeah yeah yeahin december.
the morning afterrelaxedi only work in toothpastetwo pence pieceit's snowingnight nightthe stranglerit's artwhatyeah yeah yeahon friday the thirteeth.
cheek squash
dancing, not in africa
cleavage
jam cafe's first birthday
nottingham contemporarypostcards to strangers (2)
[Postcrossing is a website where you send postcards to people you don't know, and then some other people send postcards to you.
I've been sending some along with this message:
"A few years ago, in the basement of a new house I'd moved into, I found a box of postcards. They were all to, and from, completely different people. I think maybe somebody who used to live there was a collector, or something. It's strange, though. None of the postcards were ever addressed, or ever sent.
I've started sending them out on Postcrossing. I don't know who the writers are, but at least they'll finally get sent. I don't know who was meant to read them, either, but at least now someone will.
I hope you like it." ]
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James, by the time time you read this, I should be camping somewhere up in those mountains! It got a bit hairy taking my ice axe through customs, but it turned out okay. I've still got the package, of course. Now let's just hope that your map was well-drawn! Speak to you in a few weeks. Nick.
Hi Julia. I arrived on the island today. See the plants? The forests here are out of this world. I'm told that the gold dust on the leaves is made by a special kind of insect - a bit like a silk worm. Julia - it's real gold! They harvest it every morning and ship it abroad. I know what you're thinking, but please don't. I'm a changed man now. I'd never dream of taking any. Back soon. Nick.
Joe, this view reminds me of the hill we used to sit on. The one overlooking the city. Just a few beers and a guitar - I'll never forget it! Hey - did you ever take Mary-Lou up there in the end? This is my city now. A few rocks, and not much else. To tell the truth, I can't wait to come home. 'til then, Nick.
Fuyuko, does this remind you of home? I still feel kind of guilty that I'm the one here and not you. You're still saving money though right? You'll be out here soon? Email me. Nick.
Holly, this is the outpost I've been billeted at. Strange they've got postcards of it, right? I got it from the only shop in the village, just a few miles down the hill. Work starts tomorrow. It looks like it'll be pretty intense, but I'll try to keep writing. By the time I've finished, those red flowers will be blooming. I'll bring you a bunch of them when I come home, okay? Nick.
I've been sending some along with this message:
"A few years ago, in the basement of a new house I'd moved into, I found a box of postcards. They were all to, and from, completely different people. I think maybe somebody who used to live there was a collector, or something. It's strange, though. None of the postcards were ever addressed, or ever sent.
I've started sending them out on Postcrossing. I don't know who the writers are, but at least they'll finally get sent. I don't know who was meant to read them, either, but at least now someone will.
I hope you like it." ]
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James, by the time time you read this, I should be camping somewhere up in those mountains! It got a bit hairy taking my ice axe through customs, but it turned out okay. I've still got the package, of course. Now let's just hope that your map was well-drawn! Speak to you in a few weeks. Nick.
Hi Julia. I arrived on the island today. See the plants? The forests here are out of this world. I'm told that the gold dust on the leaves is made by a special kind of insect - a bit like a silk worm. Julia - it's real gold! They harvest it every morning and ship it abroad. I know what you're thinking, but please don't. I'm a changed man now. I'd never dream of taking any. Back soon. Nick.
Joe, this view reminds me of the hill we used to sit on. The one overlooking the city. Just a few beers and a guitar - I'll never forget it! Hey - did you ever take Mary-Lou up there in the end? This is my city now. A few rocks, and not much else. To tell the truth, I can't wait to come home. 'til then, Nick.
Fuyuko, does this remind you of home? I still feel kind of guilty that I'm the one here and not you. You're still saving money though right? You'll be out here soon? Email me. Nick.
Holly, this is the outpost I've been billeted at. Strange they've got postcards of it, right? I got it from the only shop in the village, just a few miles down the hill. Work starts tomorrow. It looks like it'll be pretty intense, but I'll try to keep writing. By the time I've finished, those red flowers will be blooming. I'll bring you a bunch of them when I come home, okay? Nick.
read me.
[Flash fiction: stories in mere handfuls of words.]
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Among the bushes and the leaves, I crouch, waiting. It's night, but dawn is just showing on the horizon. There's not much time left.
I'm waiting for the golden stag. It only comes out once a year, and only when the sun is down. It's said that one look at it will change your life forever. But I've been here all night, and I haven't seen a thing.
As dawn breaks over the horizon, I mutter a curse. I head home and go to bed - I'll need rest for tomorrow.
If only I knew which night of the year the damn thing appears.
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"Democracy isn't working," it was announced yesterday. "Instead, one person will be in charge of everything. We'll have a lottery, with everyone having an equal chance."
The selection was done that very night. On every TV and computer monitor in the entire country, on every billboard, in every headline, on every posted on every bus stop, in magazines, flyers, leaflets and handouts - there was my name.
That was a whole 24 hours ago now. I made it to the woods before everyone found me. It's cold here; cold and wet. I'm hungry and alone.
But I'm never going back.
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When he heard about the approaching forest fire, Gerald fetched the gasoline.
"Don't worry," he promised his family. "This is truly for the best."
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"Can I have a go?" he asked.
"No, of course not," she said. "Utterly out of the question."
"Oh come on. Why not?"
"Some things are just impossible," she said firmly.
"Please?" he begged, "I really want a go. Can't you make an exception?"
She looked at his eager face, and couldn't help but cave.
"Well, okay," she said. "But just this once, alright?"
He nodded, grinning ear to ear.
They found the aeroplane's wreckage three days later, washed up on a beach in Mexico.
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I see Charles writing in his diary every night. He went to work one day, and I guiltily looked inside. Every entry was nearly the same. "I didn't do anything today," the first one said. "Today was a blank," said the second.
I was shocked at first, but when I thought about it, I realised that he was right. Five minutes later, when I left the flat for the last time, I felt pretty bad. But then I thought - maybe today's page would finally be different.
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"Wake up! You're late!" I yell.
The door opens and something that looks like Robert walks out.
"Hi," it says.
"Umm...."
"Isn't it cool?" the real Robert calls out from within the room. "It can do everything for me! Work, walk, eat, talk. Living, loving, everything. I'll never have to get up again!"
The new Robert smiles.
"So you're just going to stay in bed?" I ask, but there's no reply. He's already gone back to sleep.
The new Robert stares at me, beaming incessantly.
"Hi," it says.
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My disease: whenever I fall in love, I turn completely invisible. This causes terrible problems with the women in my life. They always leave; every single one. It's OK now though - I have a new girlfriend.
She's totally blind. We're getting along great. It's perfect because she has no idea that I'm still there.
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The genie zooms out of the lamp. "You get three wishes," it says. "But they have to be things that no-one has wished for before."
I think hard. Money, fame, immortality - all already taken, of course. I try smaller, simpler things. A sandwich. A free haircut.
"Already taken, I'm afraid," says the genie.
I'm there for hours, racking my brains. At last, I think of something.
"I wish I was more of an individual. I wish I had a bigger imagination, with more hopes and dreams. I wish I stood out. I wish my mind worked in a different way to everyone else's. I wish I was special."
"Already taken," the genie says, yawning.
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Among the bushes and the leaves, I crouch, waiting. It's night, but dawn is just showing on the horizon. There's not much time left.
I'm waiting for the golden stag. It only comes out once a year, and only when the sun is down. It's said that one look at it will change your life forever. But I've been here all night, and I haven't seen a thing.
As dawn breaks over the horizon, I mutter a curse. I head home and go to bed - I'll need rest for tomorrow.
If only I knew which night of the year the damn thing appears.
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"Democracy isn't working," it was announced yesterday. "Instead, one person will be in charge of everything. We'll have a lottery, with everyone having an equal chance."
The selection was done that very night. On every TV and computer monitor in the entire country, on every billboard, in every headline, on every posted on every bus stop, in magazines, flyers, leaflets and handouts - there was my name.
That was a whole 24 hours ago now. I made it to the woods before everyone found me. It's cold here; cold and wet. I'm hungry and alone.
But I'm never going back.
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When he heard about the approaching forest fire, Gerald fetched the gasoline.
"Don't worry," he promised his family. "This is truly for the best."
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"Can I have a go?" he asked.
"No, of course not," she said. "Utterly out of the question."
"Oh come on. Why not?"
"Some things are just impossible," she said firmly.
"Please?" he begged, "I really want a go. Can't you make an exception?"
She looked at his eager face, and couldn't help but cave.
"Well, okay," she said. "But just this once, alright?"
He nodded, grinning ear to ear.
They found the aeroplane's wreckage three days later, washed up on a beach in Mexico.
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I see Charles writing in his diary every night. He went to work one day, and I guiltily looked inside. Every entry was nearly the same. "I didn't do anything today," the first one said. "Today was a blank," said the second.
I was shocked at first, but when I thought about it, I realised that he was right. Five minutes later, when I left the flat for the last time, I felt pretty bad. But then I thought - maybe today's page would finally be different.
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"Wake up! You're late!" I yell.
The door opens and something that looks like Robert walks out.
"Hi," it says.
"Umm...."
"Isn't it cool?" the real Robert calls out from within the room. "It can do everything for me! Work, walk, eat, talk. Living, loving, everything. I'll never have to get up again!"
The new Robert smiles.
"So you're just going to stay in bed?" I ask, but there's no reply. He's already gone back to sleep.
The new Robert stares at me, beaming incessantly.
"Hi," it says.
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My disease: whenever I fall in love, I turn completely invisible. This causes terrible problems with the women in my life. They always leave; every single one. It's OK now though - I have a new girlfriend.
She's totally blind. We're getting along great. It's perfect because she has no idea that I'm still there.
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The genie zooms out of the lamp. "You get three wishes," it says. "But they have to be things that no-one has wished for before."
I think hard. Money, fame, immortality - all already taken, of course. I try smaller, simpler things. A sandwich. A free haircut.
"Already taken, I'm afraid," says the genie.
I'm there for hours, racking my brains. At last, I think of something.
"I wish I was more of an individual. I wish I had a bigger imagination, with more hopes and dreams. I wish I stood out. I wish my mind worked in a different way to everyone else's. I wish I was special."
"Already taken," the genie says, yawning.
23/08/09
tube escalator
overgrown steps
oporto
on the steps of st. paul's cathedral
lady, the dog with the full-body mohawk
"love isn't always on time"
these plants
[Published in "Fast Forward: The Mix Tape, A Collection of Flash Fiction, Volume Three".
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The first time I saw green shoots growing out of my skin, I pruned them with a pair of scissors, went to sleep, and though no more about it.
But by the next morning, they were back. So I watered them under the tap. The flowers started to grow. They grew so fast that I could see it happening. I went out into the garden. The flowers grew up, above the fence, above the streetlights, above my house. They grew past the clouds, up into the sky where you couldn't see them any more.
That afternoon, a young man came along and asked if he could climb my stalks, up to the flowers. He said he wanted to see what was up there. I said okay.
In the next few days, lots more people climbed my stalks. I watched them disappear, one by one, through the clouds.
I kind of wanted to go up there too, but I couldn't because they were my flowers and you can't climb yourself. There'd be nothing to hold on to.
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The first time I saw green shoots growing out of my skin, I pruned them with a pair of scissors, went to sleep, and though no more about it.
But by the next morning, they were back. So I watered them under the tap. The flowers started to grow. They grew so fast that I could see it happening. I went out into the garden. The flowers grew up, above the fence, above the streetlights, above my house. They grew past the clouds, up into the sky where you couldn't see them any more.
That afternoon, a young man came along and asked if he could climb my stalks, up to the flowers. He said he wanted to see what was up there. I said okay.
In the next few days, lots more people climbed my stalks. I watched them disappear, one by one, through the clouds.
I kind of wanted to go up there too, but I couldn't because they were my flowers and you can't climb yourself. There'd be nothing to hold on to.
music to feel cold to.
[A short story. It's a little large to post on a blog, so I've put it up for download at this link:
http://www.megaupload.com/?d=IOLELDW2
It's in an MS Word format that should work for most people - but if you're having trouble, please email me.]
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An excerpt:
I press play again, and lean closer. It's night. Nothing but trees. The camera pans to the right. You can hear the wind whistling through the branches, blowing ice into the air. Silver dust. The picture creeps on, inching to the right. More trees.
There. Something - small, moving through the wood. The camera zooms in, struggles to find focus. There's a figure in the distance, walking slowly, hard to make out but definitely there. My face nearly touches the screen. It could be, I think. It really could be.
I press play again, eyelids drooping. Trees, slow pan. Ice and glitter. I am asleep.
In the morning, I wake up to the news that the world's temperature has dropped another degree.
http://www.megaupload.com/?d=IOLELDW2
It's in an MS Word format that should work for most people - but if you're having trouble, please email me.]
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An excerpt:
I press play again, and lean closer. It's night. Nothing but trees. The camera pans to the right. You can hear the wind whistling through the branches, blowing ice into the air. Silver dust. The picture creeps on, inching to the right. More trees.
There. Something - small, moving through the wood. The camera zooms in, struggles to find focus. There's a figure in the distance, walking slowly, hard to make out but definitely there. My face nearly touches the screen. It could be, I think. It really could be.
I press play again, eyelids drooping. Trees, slow pan. Ice and glitter. I am asleep.
In the morning, I wake up to the news that the world's temperature has dropped another degree.
postcards from strangers
[When I was in Japan, someone gave me a whole pack of postcards to places I'd never been. I decided to write made-up messages on them, from made-up people. Then I posted them to strangers. Maybe they'll think that "I" got the address wrong, and maybe then they'll think they're getting a brief insight into other people's lives.
Or maybe they'll realise as soon as they see Japanese postcards with English stamps on them. Who knows.]
Jane, you can't imagine how I felt when I woke up here, with no memory of how or why I arrived. It's coming back to me now... I'm trying to feel angry, but I understand why you did it. I don't know when I'll be back. I don't really feel like leaving right now. One day. Nick.
Or maybe they'll realise as soon as they see Japanese postcards with English stamps on them. Who knows.]
This is the view from our outpost. Do you remember it, Anya? I took the picture late last night; Ryunosuke made it into a postcard in about five minutes. He's a wizard with his Mac, I swear. I'm doing okay, just a bit nervous, that's all. Not long to go now. I'll be back soon. See you then - Nick.
I know you'll like this picture, Jean. The rescue vehicles finally arrived! I'll be back soon, maybe before this card. I can't believe how small the research centre looks.....strange to think I'll never go back, after all this time. But I'm dying to come home. Until then, your loving father.
Emiko, have you ever been to Kyushu? You'd love it here. The flowers and grass go on for hours, miles in every direction. They take you round on small wooden carts, old rickety things that clatter as they go. Maybe I'll take you here someday. See you soon - Nick.
David. They took this picture straight after the frost. It's already in all the papers.....I couldn't believe it, but I guess it is pretty. We were going back to the inn at the time. Got caught right in the middle of it. We hid underneath a bush to escapr the worst of the wind, but I swear we still nearly froze to death. Oh well. It's a story, I suppose. See you soon. Nick.
Hi Mikhail! See those trees on the front? They're Sakurajima fire trees. Burning hot to the touch! I think it developed as a defence machanism against squirrels. Pretty cool, but I wish I'd known about it beforehand. See you soon! Nick.
Jane, you can't imagine how I felt when I woke up here, with no memory of how or why I arrived. It's coming back to me now... I'm trying to feel angry, but I understand why you did it. I don't know when I'll be back. I don't really feel like leaving right now. One day. Nick.
push.
[A short story]
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We file in, looking bleak. I don’t think Aunt Grace has noticed how on-edge we all are, but she must know something’s up. There’s a ten-minute buffer where we all talk about what we’re going to order - then the waiter comes back, writes down what we’re all having, and takes the menus away. The bastard.
‘So,’ Aunt says, cheerfully starting a conversation that feels like a fuse. ‘What have you all been up to this year?’
Same question every time. Aunt Grace visits us once a year around the start of summer. We always go out to dinner, and she always gets her update. We all used to go up and visit her in Consett, but that was an age ago, back when Mum was still here. When she died of cancer a few years back, there was no-one left to force us up to her sister’s house in the icy north. So we’re left with the annual meal, and its annual questions.
As usual, we mumble evasive responses. Playing hard-to-get, as if there’s any chance Aunt Grace won’t needle everything out of us. Any moment now, she’ll -
'Oh come on. Joe, what about you?’
Yeah. This is the bit where we go round the table, and see one-by-one who can get away with talking for the shortest time. I suppose at least we’re not talking about….the other thing. Yet. It’s got to happen; that’s why we’re all sweating.
“Joe” is my Dad. I think he was a bit shocked when he found out he had to keep seeing his sister-in-law when his wife died. Dad runs a local cleaning business, so he jabbers about that for a while, and it seems to satisfy her.
So she turns to us - ‘And how about the Shy Guys?’
Oh god. Yeah, that’s what she calls me and my brother. Even now. I guess she wishes she had more exciting relatives. I look away so my brother will talk first.
‘Come on Elvis-Aaron, how’s the job?’
I watch my brother wince. No-one calls us by our full names except her. It’s because Dad’s called Joe Smith – the most boring name in the world. He decided to give us more “interesting” names, which is fine in theory. He just screwed it up.
The job she means is El’s paper-pushing position downtown. By all accounts he seems to be the one who makes the tea, even for the work experience boy. I‘d bug him about it, but it’s not like I’m setting the world on fire, either.
‘Blah blah accounts, blah blah marketing,’ El says, or something like that. Aunt Grace nods and smiles.
It was too easy. El and Dad’s victories mean she’ll want something juicy from me.
‘Last but not least,’ she says. ‘Got a girlfriend, Nebuchadnezzar?’
No, and there go my chances with anyone in earshot, I nearly say. Having had their turns, my teammates betray me.
‘Yeah Neb,’ El says with a raised eyebrow. ‘How is the lovelife?’
I’m squirming enough to feel saved, at first, when our sister arrives. But this is what we’ve been dreading. Our table shuts up.
Venezuela Smith makes her way over to us, turning heads and catching eyes. She wears clothes of intricate black lace, with black ribbons in her black hair. Dark, in every sense of the word. She’s the only one of us that uses her full name – and wields it like an axe. Venezuela’s the opposite of me and El. She has an immovable confidence made of ice, and you can feel its chill as she walks past. We’ve never been the best of friends. I can’t feel comfortable with someone who moves like she owns the world. Even when on crutches.
‘Venezuela! Dear!’ Aunt Grace cries out in surprise. ‘What have you done?’
My sister looks uncharacteristically awkward as she maneuvers herself into a chair. Then she’s back to her usual regal composure, as she surveys the gaunt mood at our table. Even Aunt Grace notices it, at last. Our time just ran out.
‘Venezuela….?’
‘My leg is broken,’ Venezuela states plainly.
‘She fell down the stairs,’ says Dad.
‘Ahhhh, my dear!’ Aunt Grace prepares to go into a lecture about safety. ‘You must make sure you’re careful….’
‘No Aunt. I was pushed.’
Aunt’s jaw drops, as the rest of us look uncomfortably away.
‘Venezuela has fallen down the stairs three times in the last six months,’ Dad tells her.
‘And each time I was pushed.’
Aunt doesn’t know what to do with herself. ‘Where does this happen?’ she asks, managing to splutter out a question.
‘Downtown. Once at the station steps, and twice in the Market Square. I don’t know who did it.’
I’ve never seen my Aunt so bewildered. ‘But what…why…’ Then she notices us, and how we look. ‘What’s going on?’
We wriggle horribly in our seats, as Venezuela stares at each of us in turn.
‘They think I’m lying.’
Two months later.
I catch sight of Venezuela while I’m shopping in the Square. The whole family’s been a bit distant lately, which is why I don’t rush over and say hi. I don’t really have anything to say to her.
After the first injury, we were concerned and sympathetic. After the second, we were confused. After the third, we were just suspicious. She didn’t come out with the “pushed” stuff until recently, after number three. Apparently at first she thought she was imagining the hands in her back – but three times isn’t a coincidence. I think we all agree with that.
Personally, I’d say that yeah, maybe the first one was an accident. Then she got the extra attention - and liked it. Venezuela has always loved being the focus of a room; just one look at her tells you that. So when she healed, and the crutches had to be put away, she wanted to feel it again. She threw herself down those stairs. The “pushing” story came later, when she realised it wasn’t working any more.
Venezuela’s walking now, but who knows for how long. We’re all waiting for number four.
She’s still looking around the Market Square. Without even thinking about it, I’ve been following her. It feels pretty creepy, but I guess I am interested in how she behaves when we’re not with her. At the moment she’s striding around with a straight back and a queenly expression, just like always.
It’s getting to the stage where I’m feeling too weird to carry on spying – when I pause. Venezuela is approaching the top of the Market Square staircase. And I know……I know I should go to her, but I can’t. Because if she falls, I have to see.
She stands at the summit. It’s a sunny Saturday afternoon, and the square doesn’t get much busier. Any one of the people swarming around her could just nudge her in the back……
And someone does. A man with a baseball cap and an upturned collar hurries past and just eases her off the edge. She’s falling, and gone, down and out of sight.
My eyes widen as I rush over, towards the cacophony of wails and gasps. I join the group of horrified middle-aged women and curious teenagers, at the lip of the drop. We all look on at her crumpled form. I see red.
As I see several onlookers reach for their phones, I scan the crowd for the pusher. He’s there, still in sight. That’s when I surprise myself. Let’s say I’m still in shock. Let’s say I’m not myself, and it hasn’t sunk in yet. God, I hope it’s something like that. I push through the crowd, follow the man in the baseball cap, and abandon my injured sister, who was telling the truth all along.
The pusher leads me down a few busy streets, then a couple of quieter ones. It doesn’t take long; he’s a fast walker, and we’re not far from the city centre.
Our destination turns out to be a tasteful-looking hotel called “The Executive”. I’m not even thinking as I go inside. Most of my brain is still pretty much switched off. I’m not angry yet. I’m not feeling anything. I’m just on autopilot, knowing it’s important to see where this man goes, and who he is. I haven’t even seen his face yet.
I step in, just in time to see a baseball cap disappear around a corner to the left. Someone with a badge that says “Lobby Manager” asks me if I’m here for the 4 o’clock meeting too, so I nod.
‘Just down there, to the left, sir,’ he says. ‘It’s just starting.’
The corridor to the left contains a series of doors. The one marked “Meeting Room B” is ajar. Peering through the crack, I can see a projection on the wall, and a man who must be the speaker.
‘…… let’s make a start,’ he’s saying.
The hubbub from the unseen audience falls away. I try not to breathe.
‘Let’s begin as we always do, by remembering why we’re here.’
An image flashes up on the wall. There’s a bird-shaped logo, and a title that reads: “Confident Sparrows”.
‘When you came here, you were each as meek as a sparrow. You were afraid of the world; fluttering away if it paid you even the slightest attention. But this isn’t a world for sparrows. You can’t be afraid to do what you always knew you should. If people look at you, you must preen your feathers and meet their gaze proudly.
‘Learning this is why you’ve come. For many, it’s the last resort – but that’s okay, because unlike similar courses, we can make you a bold promise – if you follow our instructions, you will succeed. It’s why you chose us.’
The speaker rubs his hands together. ‘Right, this week we’re doing feedback on our latest negative displacement exercise.’ The projection changes accordingly.
My eyes explode. The slide explains that negative displacement is the idea of shifting depressing feelings onto others. In jaunty colours, it instructs the group to hurt people they dislike. “Perhaps a push down the stairs!” suggests a happy-go-lucky sparrow character via a speech balloon. The last bullet point reads: “You are superior! Never be afraid!”
All this, I’m taking in while listening to a man in the audience talk animatedly about poisoning a workmate’s coffee, hospitalising him for a week.
The stories come thick and fast. Another man threw a brick at a neighbour, and a woman dropped hot coffee out of her sixth-floor office window. I hear about thumbtacks in shoes, scalding-hot saucepans left in kitchens, and bedsheets scattered with broken glass. Tale after tale told in smug, chirpy voices. But just when I start to feel cold and detached, I realise someone’s halfway through a story about staircases. And I know him.
The speaker’s been sprinkling out compliments like a proud parent at a wedding.
‘Excellently done, Elvis-Aaron,’ he says, and I can feel the grins from behind the door. ‘You’re making some fantastic progress. Are you feeling the difference?’
He is. He’s spectacular. El’s sitting on top of the world, like it’s his own personal leather recliner. Just like the one in his spacious new office, at his glorious new job. Not just a paper-pusher now; he’s flying high, pushing expensive, executive papers. Everyone asks about his job, and he always has something interesting to say. El smiles now. We all noticed, and we all wondered.
After a while I’m vaguely aware that the meeting has ended, and I move away before they open the door and find me. I’m starting to get a throbbing headache. I don’t think about it as I wait for El around a corner, and start following him again.
He’s not going anywhere unusual this time; just the train station, to go home. He stands at the busy platform, and waits. I move forward, meaning to talk to him, but what could I possibly I say? I thought I knew this guy, a man who’s pushed my sister down the stairs, four times to date.
And that’s when I remember – I don’t even know if she’s still alive.
I’m standing right behind El on the platform, as the crowds close around us. The approaching train is screeching to a halt. Everyone’s heads are turned away.
And all it takes is a little push.
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We file in, looking bleak. I don’t think Aunt Grace has noticed how on-edge we all are, but she must know something’s up. There’s a ten-minute buffer where we all talk about what we’re going to order - then the waiter comes back, writes down what we’re all having, and takes the menus away. The bastard.
‘So,’ Aunt says, cheerfully starting a conversation that feels like a fuse. ‘What have you all been up to this year?’
Same question every time. Aunt Grace visits us once a year around the start of summer. We always go out to dinner, and she always gets her update. We all used to go up and visit her in Consett, but that was an age ago, back when Mum was still here. When she died of cancer a few years back, there was no-one left to force us up to her sister’s house in the icy north. So we’re left with the annual meal, and its annual questions.
As usual, we mumble evasive responses. Playing hard-to-get, as if there’s any chance Aunt Grace won’t needle everything out of us. Any moment now, she’ll -
'Oh come on. Joe, what about you?’
Yeah. This is the bit where we go round the table, and see one-by-one who can get away with talking for the shortest time. I suppose at least we’re not talking about….the other thing. Yet. It’s got to happen; that’s why we’re all sweating.
“Joe” is my Dad. I think he was a bit shocked when he found out he had to keep seeing his sister-in-law when his wife died. Dad runs a local cleaning business, so he jabbers about that for a while, and it seems to satisfy her.
So she turns to us - ‘And how about the Shy Guys?’
Oh god. Yeah, that’s what she calls me and my brother. Even now. I guess she wishes she had more exciting relatives. I look away so my brother will talk first.
‘Come on Elvis-Aaron, how’s the job?’
I watch my brother wince. No-one calls us by our full names except her. It’s because Dad’s called Joe Smith – the most boring name in the world. He decided to give us more “interesting” names, which is fine in theory. He just screwed it up.
The job she means is El’s paper-pushing position downtown. By all accounts he seems to be the one who makes the tea, even for the work experience boy. I‘d bug him about it, but it’s not like I’m setting the world on fire, either.
‘Blah blah accounts, blah blah marketing,’ El says, or something like that. Aunt Grace nods and smiles.
It was too easy. El and Dad’s victories mean she’ll want something juicy from me.
‘Last but not least,’ she says. ‘Got a girlfriend, Nebuchadnezzar?’
No, and there go my chances with anyone in earshot, I nearly say. Having had their turns, my teammates betray me.
‘Yeah Neb,’ El says with a raised eyebrow. ‘How is the lovelife?’
I’m squirming enough to feel saved, at first, when our sister arrives. But this is what we’ve been dreading. Our table shuts up.
Venezuela Smith makes her way over to us, turning heads and catching eyes. She wears clothes of intricate black lace, with black ribbons in her black hair. Dark, in every sense of the word. She’s the only one of us that uses her full name – and wields it like an axe. Venezuela’s the opposite of me and El. She has an immovable confidence made of ice, and you can feel its chill as she walks past. We’ve never been the best of friends. I can’t feel comfortable with someone who moves like she owns the world. Even when on crutches.
‘Venezuela! Dear!’ Aunt Grace cries out in surprise. ‘What have you done?’
My sister looks uncharacteristically awkward as she maneuvers herself into a chair. Then she’s back to her usual regal composure, as she surveys the gaunt mood at our table. Even Aunt Grace notices it, at last. Our time just ran out.
‘Venezuela….?’
‘My leg is broken,’ Venezuela states plainly.
‘She fell down the stairs,’ says Dad.
‘Ahhhh, my dear!’ Aunt Grace prepares to go into a lecture about safety. ‘You must make sure you’re careful….’
‘No Aunt. I was pushed.’
Aunt’s jaw drops, as the rest of us look uncomfortably away.
‘Venezuela has fallen down the stairs three times in the last six months,’ Dad tells her.
‘And each time I was pushed.’
Aunt doesn’t know what to do with herself. ‘Where does this happen?’ she asks, managing to splutter out a question.
‘Downtown. Once at the station steps, and twice in the Market Square. I don’t know who did it.’
I’ve never seen my Aunt so bewildered. ‘But what…why…’ Then she notices us, and how we look. ‘What’s going on?’
We wriggle horribly in our seats, as Venezuela stares at each of us in turn.
‘They think I’m lying.’
Two months later.
I catch sight of Venezuela while I’m shopping in the Square. The whole family’s been a bit distant lately, which is why I don’t rush over and say hi. I don’t really have anything to say to her.
After the first injury, we were concerned and sympathetic. After the second, we were confused. After the third, we were just suspicious. She didn’t come out with the “pushed” stuff until recently, after number three. Apparently at first she thought she was imagining the hands in her back – but three times isn’t a coincidence. I think we all agree with that.
Personally, I’d say that yeah, maybe the first one was an accident. Then she got the extra attention - and liked it. Venezuela has always loved being the focus of a room; just one look at her tells you that. So when she healed, and the crutches had to be put away, she wanted to feel it again. She threw herself down those stairs. The “pushing” story came later, when she realised it wasn’t working any more.
Venezuela’s walking now, but who knows for how long. We’re all waiting for number four.
She’s still looking around the Market Square. Without even thinking about it, I’ve been following her. It feels pretty creepy, but I guess I am interested in how she behaves when we’re not with her. At the moment she’s striding around with a straight back and a queenly expression, just like always.
It’s getting to the stage where I’m feeling too weird to carry on spying – when I pause. Venezuela is approaching the top of the Market Square staircase. And I know……I know I should go to her, but I can’t. Because if she falls, I have to see.
She stands at the summit. It’s a sunny Saturday afternoon, and the square doesn’t get much busier. Any one of the people swarming around her could just nudge her in the back……
And someone does. A man with a baseball cap and an upturned collar hurries past and just eases her off the edge. She’s falling, and gone, down and out of sight.
My eyes widen as I rush over, towards the cacophony of wails and gasps. I join the group of horrified middle-aged women and curious teenagers, at the lip of the drop. We all look on at her crumpled form. I see red.
As I see several onlookers reach for their phones, I scan the crowd for the pusher. He’s there, still in sight. That’s when I surprise myself. Let’s say I’m still in shock. Let’s say I’m not myself, and it hasn’t sunk in yet. God, I hope it’s something like that. I push through the crowd, follow the man in the baseball cap, and abandon my injured sister, who was telling the truth all along.
The pusher leads me down a few busy streets, then a couple of quieter ones. It doesn’t take long; he’s a fast walker, and we’re not far from the city centre.
Our destination turns out to be a tasteful-looking hotel called “The Executive”. I’m not even thinking as I go inside. Most of my brain is still pretty much switched off. I’m not angry yet. I’m not feeling anything. I’m just on autopilot, knowing it’s important to see where this man goes, and who he is. I haven’t even seen his face yet.
I step in, just in time to see a baseball cap disappear around a corner to the left. Someone with a badge that says “Lobby Manager” asks me if I’m here for the 4 o’clock meeting too, so I nod.
‘Just down there, to the left, sir,’ he says. ‘It’s just starting.’
The corridor to the left contains a series of doors. The one marked “Meeting Room B” is ajar. Peering through the crack, I can see a projection on the wall, and a man who must be the speaker.
‘…… let’s make a start,’ he’s saying.
The hubbub from the unseen audience falls away. I try not to breathe.
‘Let’s begin as we always do, by remembering why we’re here.’
An image flashes up on the wall. There’s a bird-shaped logo, and a title that reads: “Confident Sparrows”.
‘When you came here, you were each as meek as a sparrow. You were afraid of the world; fluttering away if it paid you even the slightest attention. But this isn’t a world for sparrows. You can’t be afraid to do what you always knew you should. If people look at you, you must preen your feathers and meet their gaze proudly.
‘Learning this is why you’ve come. For many, it’s the last resort – but that’s okay, because unlike similar courses, we can make you a bold promise – if you follow our instructions, you will succeed. It’s why you chose us.’
The speaker rubs his hands together. ‘Right, this week we’re doing feedback on our latest negative displacement exercise.’ The projection changes accordingly.
My eyes explode. The slide explains that negative displacement is the idea of shifting depressing feelings onto others. In jaunty colours, it instructs the group to hurt people they dislike. “Perhaps a push down the stairs!” suggests a happy-go-lucky sparrow character via a speech balloon. The last bullet point reads: “You are superior! Never be afraid!”
All this, I’m taking in while listening to a man in the audience talk animatedly about poisoning a workmate’s coffee, hospitalising him for a week.
The stories come thick and fast. Another man threw a brick at a neighbour, and a woman dropped hot coffee out of her sixth-floor office window. I hear about thumbtacks in shoes, scalding-hot saucepans left in kitchens, and bedsheets scattered with broken glass. Tale after tale told in smug, chirpy voices. But just when I start to feel cold and detached, I realise someone’s halfway through a story about staircases. And I know him.
The speaker’s been sprinkling out compliments like a proud parent at a wedding.
‘Excellently done, Elvis-Aaron,’ he says, and I can feel the grins from behind the door. ‘You’re making some fantastic progress. Are you feeling the difference?’
He is. He’s spectacular. El’s sitting on top of the world, like it’s his own personal leather recliner. Just like the one in his spacious new office, at his glorious new job. Not just a paper-pusher now; he’s flying high, pushing expensive, executive papers. Everyone asks about his job, and he always has something interesting to say. El smiles now. We all noticed, and we all wondered.
After a while I’m vaguely aware that the meeting has ended, and I move away before they open the door and find me. I’m starting to get a throbbing headache. I don’t think about it as I wait for El around a corner, and start following him again.
He’s not going anywhere unusual this time; just the train station, to go home. He stands at the busy platform, and waits. I move forward, meaning to talk to him, but what could I possibly I say? I thought I knew this guy, a man who’s pushed my sister down the stairs, four times to date.
And that’s when I remember – I don’t even know if she’s still alive.
I’m standing right behind El on the platform, as the crowds close around us. The approaching train is screeching to a halt. Everyone’s heads are turned away.
And all it takes is a little push.
free stories (2)
[Stories told in mere handfuls of words.]
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Champion of the World
If you want to be the polar arctic rock face climbing champion of the world, you've got to work at it. You've got to climb every day until your fingers bleed. You've got to practice technique, and take baths of ice to get used to the cold. It's tough, but that's what it takes to get to the top.
This morning I decided that I don't want to be the polar arctic rock face climbing champion of the world.
Eye Contact
I read on the Internet that eye contact is the key to social confidence. If you meet someone's gaze head-on, and they look away first, then you know you're the dominant person in that situation.
I believe it. Though it's not a skill I've ever really had. The last time I looked someone in the eye was twenty years ago now. But I want to learn. I've been practicing with the characters on TV, and I'm getting better all the time.
The Inside of a Cat
The inside of a cat looks like the wires around the back of my computer and also like pictures of cities taken from helicopters. Today was not a good day for me. She changed her phone number and I don't know if I can make rent. Even so, I don't really know why I'm doing what I'm doing. But I guess it's made me feel better. The inside of a cat looks more complicated than any problem of mine.
Positive Thinking
I believe in the power of positive thinking. That's how placebos work. You believe you're getting better, and so you do. It's pretty amazing.
I'm taking the same approach with my problem. It's all about attitude. Every minute of the day, I'm willing myself to get better. And I know I will. In a few weeks from now, I'll be climbing mountains again. I'll go running every morning, just like I used to. I can't wait.
My prosthetics consultant calls it blind optimism, but what does she know?
Blooming
Blooming since Spring, the flowers grow all wild and strong. They take over the fences, the pavements, the benches. One in particular...he's been there, since Spring. A white beard his own forest. The flowers have begun to curl around his feet.
Room With A View
In an age of TVs, computers, video games and DVDs, I think more people should unplug. Do what I do - look through a window. Honestly. You'd be surprised at the amazing things you can see. It's always interesting - and you get this magnificent sense of freedom.
I started doing it a few weeks ago, and now I can't stop. The only real drawback is that the flowerbeds make your shoes muddy. And if the neighbours see you they call the police.
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Champion of the World
If you want to be the polar arctic rock face climbing champion of the world, you've got to work at it. You've got to climb every day until your fingers bleed. You've got to practice technique, and take baths of ice to get used to the cold. It's tough, but that's what it takes to get to the top.
This morning I decided that I don't want to be the polar arctic rock face climbing champion of the world.
Eye Contact
I read on the Internet that eye contact is the key to social confidence. If you meet someone's gaze head-on, and they look away first, then you know you're the dominant person in that situation.
I believe it. Though it's not a skill I've ever really had. The last time I looked someone in the eye was twenty years ago now. But I want to learn. I've been practicing with the characters on TV, and I'm getting better all the time.
The Inside of a Cat
The inside of a cat looks like the wires around the back of my computer and also like pictures of cities taken from helicopters. Today was not a good day for me. She changed her phone number and I don't know if I can make rent. Even so, I don't really know why I'm doing what I'm doing. But I guess it's made me feel better. The inside of a cat looks more complicated than any problem of mine.
Positive Thinking
I believe in the power of positive thinking. That's how placebos work. You believe you're getting better, and so you do. It's pretty amazing.
I'm taking the same approach with my problem. It's all about attitude. Every minute of the day, I'm willing myself to get better. And I know I will. In a few weeks from now, I'll be climbing mountains again. I'll go running every morning, just like I used to. I can't wait.
My prosthetics consultant calls it blind optimism, but what does she know?
Blooming
Blooming since Spring, the flowers grow all wild and strong. They take over the fences, the pavements, the benches. One in particular...he's been there, since Spring. A white beard his own forest. The flowers have begun to curl around his feet.
Room With A View
In an age of TVs, computers, video games and DVDs, I think more people should unplug. Do what I do - look through a window. Honestly. You'd be surprised at the amazing things you can see. It's always interesting - and you get this magnificent sense of freedom.
I started doing it a few weeks ago, and now I can't stop. The only real drawback is that the flowerbeds make your shoes muddy. And if the neighbours see you they call the police.
free stories (1)
[Stories in mere handfuls of words.]
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Morning Heart Attack
Heart attack on a cold morning. He's on the pavement outside my house, just lying there. The ambulance comes, they load him in, and he, just conscious, nods his thanks to me and my quick 999. Several days later, there's a knock on my door. He's come to thank me personally. As it turns out, he's a skilled entrepreneur who made a small fortune on the property market. He is also a very generous man.
I imagine all this as I walk past, pretending not to notice.
Single Dad
My kid came home sobbing, and asked for a name change. Again. I knew I had to be firm.
"For God's sake Elvis. You can't come home all upset every damn day. If anyone takes the piss, hit 'em in the bleedin' nose. Grow some balls. And Jesus, stop bloody cryin'. You're embarassing yourself."
Sometimes it's hard being a single dad, but I think I've got it sorted. My daughter hates me, but Christ she'll grow up tough.
Fireworks
Fireworks, cheering, dancing. People flood the streets. He asks what's happening, but no-one replies because everyone knows.
But he doesn't. He really doesn't.
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Morning Heart Attack
Heart attack on a cold morning. He's on the pavement outside my house, just lying there. The ambulance comes, they load him in, and he, just conscious, nods his thanks to me and my quick 999. Several days later, there's a knock on my door. He's come to thank me personally. As it turns out, he's a skilled entrepreneur who made a small fortune on the property market. He is also a very generous man.
I imagine all this as I walk past, pretending not to notice.
Single Dad
My kid came home sobbing, and asked for a name change. Again. I knew I had to be firm.
"For God's sake Elvis. You can't come home all upset every damn day. If anyone takes the piss, hit 'em in the bleedin' nose. Grow some balls. And Jesus, stop bloody cryin'. You're embarassing yourself."
Sometimes it's hard being a single dad, but I think I've got it sorted. My daughter hates me, but Christ she'll grow up tough.
Fireworks
Fireworks, cheering, dancing. People flood the streets. He asks what's happening, but no-one replies because everyone knows.
But he doesn't. He really doesn't.
how i relax.
[A short story created on the theme "You wake up in a forest".]
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I’ve arrived.
Everything seems to be right. Green grass, tall trees, trickle of water. About bloody time. I've been reading that damn textbook for over a week, following every instruction to the letter. I felt ridiculous sprinkling leaves over my bed. "Visit your heavenly dreamplace," the book said. "Drain away your stress while you sleep." Well, we'll see.
I set out towards the water. It's all quite nice, I suppose. Reminds me of the background on my office PC. The little stream is in a clearing, so I can see the sky. There's a rainbow in it. Can't complain.
A bush by the stream looks a little bit like a chair. I test it with a curious hand... soft as silk. I sit, and sink.
Leaves rustle - it's a rabbit. It hops over with a strawberry in its paws, drops it in my hand, and bounces away. The fruit is juicy, sweet as syrup. I think……I think I might actually be enjoying myself. Time slips by like sand through my fingers.
Snap.
I look up. There's a teenage boy on the other side of the stream, glancing around. He stepped on a twig, ruining my moment. When he sees me watching, he gives me a wave. Annoyed, I get out of my seat.
"Excuse me," I say. "Who are you? And why are you here?"
"Oh, um, hey dude,’ the teenager says, ‘I found this book called Dreamplaces, at the library. It told me how to get here, you know? In dreams. I, uh, didn't realise there'd be anyone else here." He grins sheepishly. "This is my first go."
I frown. "Yes, well, you've made a mistake, I'm sorry to say. This is my dreamplace. You'll just have to leave."
"Oh. Right. Are you sure? Because I did everything just like the book said."
"Of course I'm sure!" My voice is getting louder. "Just leave me alone, alright?"
"Hey man, that's not really fair. There's room for both of us. We'll just have to share."
"I don't think so. I was here first, so this place is mine. Just piss off, okay?"
The stupid boy stands his ground. "Don't be a jerk! Why can't we both stay?"
I've had enough of this. I grab a rock from the banks of the stream, and stride over to where the teenager's standing. He looks unsure.
"Hey, hey dude, what're you doing?"
I smash his stupid fucking face in. He falls over, face down in the brook; the splash echoes out, then falls away. I breathe out, and once again, I start to relax.
Then the water turns red. The grass in the clearing shrivels away, and the trees wither to blackened husks. The rainbow in the sky turns to grey clouds that hide the sun. Everything smells of ash, sulphur, and disease.
My dreamplace is a wasteland of charred plants and rotting rabbit corpses. The teenager's body is a skeleton. It sits up.
"What did you do that for?", he asks.
"Shut up," I tell him.
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I’ve arrived.
Everything seems to be right. Green grass, tall trees, trickle of water. About bloody time. I've been reading that damn textbook for over a week, following every instruction to the letter. I felt ridiculous sprinkling leaves over my bed. "Visit your heavenly dreamplace," the book said. "Drain away your stress while you sleep." Well, we'll see.
I set out towards the water. It's all quite nice, I suppose. Reminds me of the background on my office PC. The little stream is in a clearing, so I can see the sky. There's a rainbow in it. Can't complain.
A bush by the stream looks a little bit like a chair. I test it with a curious hand... soft as silk. I sit, and sink.
Leaves rustle - it's a rabbit. It hops over with a strawberry in its paws, drops it in my hand, and bounces away. The fruit is juicy, sweet as syrup. I think……I think I might actually be enjoying myself. Time slips by like sand through my fingers.
Snap.
I look up. There's a teenage boy on the other side of the stream, glancing around. He stepped on a twig, ruining my moment. When he sees me watching, he gives me a wave. Annoyed, I get out of my seat.
"Excuse me," I say. "Who are you? And why are you here?"
"Oh, um, hey dude,’ the teenager says, ‘I found this book called Dreamplaces, at the library. It told me how to get here, you know? In dreams. I, uh, didn't realise there'd be anyone else here." He grins sheepishly. "This is my first go."
I frown. "Yes, well, you've made a mistake, I'm sorry to say. This is my dreamplace. You'll just have to leave."
"Oh. Right. Are you sure? Because I did everything just like the book said."
"Of course I'm sure!" My voice is getting louder. "Just leave me alone, alright?"
"Hey man, that's not really fair. There's room for both of us. We'll just have to share."
"I don't think so. I was here first, so this place is mine. Just piss off, okay?"
The stupid boy stands his ground. "Don't be a jerk! Why can't we both stay?"
I've had enough of this. I grab a rock from the banks of the stream, and stride over to where the teenager's standing. He looks unsure.
"Hey, hey dude, what're you doing?"
I smash his stupid fucking face in. He falls over, face down in the brook; the splash echoes out, then falls away. I breathe out, and once again, I start to relax.
Then the water turns red. The grass in the clearing shrivels away, and the trees wither to blackened husks. The rainbow in the sky turns to grey clouds that hide the sun. Everything smells of ash, sulphur, and disease.
My dreamplace is a wasteland of charred plants and rotting rabbit corpses. The teenager's body is a skeleton. It sits up.
"What did you do that for?", he asks.
"Shut up," I tell him.
charlie fox.
I was bored at work. I began writing a story on scrap bits of till roll. It was called - and this seems pretty whimsical now - "Lucy and the Bubbly Airship". It must have been a sunny day.
Lucy's story was about a journey she undertook on, of course, an airship. She would have gone on to meet lots of interesting characters and take part in fabulous adventures.....if I'd ever gotten around to writing more than nine chapters. These were short chapters too - my writing time limited to those moments when both management and customers weren't looking. But for a while, me and Lucy were having fun.
Each chapter took me a day (/shift) to write. On the way home, I would put the story into an envelope. I wrote "Free story (please take)" on it. And then I left on this bench, in the park:
Not that my stories were anything special. It's not like I thought they'd brighten up anyone's day. I just did it because it's the sort of thing I'd like to find.
So I left them, and every time I went back, they were always gone. After nine chapters, I stopped, and that seemed like the end of Lucy. But......
It was a while later. Months, probably. I got a Facebook message. The first paragraph of text quoted chapter four of Lucy and the Bubbly Airship. I'd signed it with my name, and someone had tracked me down. He was called Charlie Fox, and he looked like this:
I'd never met a Charlie Fox. I didn't know anything about Charlie Fox. He didn't reply to my messages, his profile was brand new, and empty, seemingly made just to send me this one message. As I said, the first paragraph contained part of Lucy's story. In the rest of the message, he continued it. He wrote about her. The story he wrote is possibly the best thing I have ever read. I sent him messages back. I told him what I thought. Nothing happened.
I never heard from Charlie Fox again.
Lucy's story was about a journey she undertook on, of course, an airship. She would have gone on to meet lots of interesting characters and take part in fabulous adventures.....if I'd ever gotten around to writing more than nine chapters. These were short chapters too - my writing time limited to those moments when both management and customers weren't looking. But for a while, me and Lucy were having fun.
Each chapter took me a day (/shift) to write. On the way home, I would put the story into an envelope. I wrote "Free story (please take)" on it. And then I left on this bench, in the park:
Not that my stories were anything special. It's not like I thought they'd brighten up anyone's day. I just did it because it's the sort of thing I'd like to find.
So I left them, and every time I went back, they were always gone. After nine chapters, I stopped, and that seemed like the end of Lucy. But......
It was a while later. Months, probably. I got a Facebook message. The first paragraph of text quoted chapter four of Lucy and the Bubbly Airship. I'd signed it with my name, and someone had tracked me down. He was called Charlie Fox, and he looked like this:
I'd never met a Charlie Fox. I didn't know anything about Charlie Fox. He didn't reply to my messages, his profile was brand new, and empty, seemingly made just to send me this one message. As I said, the first paragraph contained part of Lucy's story. In the rest of the message, he continued it. He wrote about her. The story he wrote is possibly the best thing I have ever read. I sent him messages back. I told him what I thought. Nothing happened.
I never heard from Charlie Fox again.
"Up on the deck you could see for miles . The floor of clouds looked soft and inviting. Once an old man saw her looking, and told her that you weren't human if you didn't want to jump in.
She held onto the rail, and leaned out as far as she could. From there, in the corner of her eye, she caught sight of a huge letter B, written on the side of the hull. That was the start of the ships name. "bringer."..."
Her whole body fraught, feeling chance through the clouds, such a unique point, she had been through the clouds before, every one of them. Not this time, this time she was transient, beyond previous lives. Life had no more lessons, she was going far from everything she knew. She held on. Other people jumped.
The captain made a crackled announcement, "#The distance between here and where we are going is getting bigger, we are almost half as far as where we were when we started, so we should arrive in sections depending on our constant ability to fluctuate.#" she wondered if the captain was on the same ship just as the next announcement came, this time clear, "~This is my maiden voyage, so I'd ask passengers to finalize themselves if they feel comfortable on board. You know who
you are so you know you should. We don't want any stowaways! I see we will run out of cloud soon, and from there, theres no turning back, we won't be going home, ever.~" Lucy knew life, and death.
She suspected the captain as one of the passengers. Everything pulsed with more color. Fresh. She, besotted beyond excitement, newer and older than she had ever been, went inside to meet the other passengers.
With a song and a color in her soul, a feeling of a question she unknowingly posed to herself asked; Had the captain realized something? Anything? And where was Bringer going?...
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